Results of hard work!

What was my reward for taking what life throws at me and crunching it up and throwing away the excuses???  A freaking 4.4 loss my friends!!! 

I have never in my life gone this long without cheating on my "diet". I have never given myself a chance to succeed.  I have always failed.  But I feel so stinkin good right now!  I am on cloud 9!  I have succeeded and only have more success to go!

But let me tell you.  This is very, very hard.  I never imagined it could be this hard! No processed foods, no sugars. I didn't cheat when I dished up my daughter some ice cream, I didn't cheat when I made her a nutella sandwich, I didn't cheat when I watched my husband eat my favorite cereal (Lucky Charms), I didn't cheat when we went to the tractor pulls and I so badly wanted nachos.  I told myself, want is different than need.  Instead of ice cream, I ate strawberries, instead of those nachos, I ate an apple.  I got the sweet and crunch and I was fine!!  I did it! I didn't feel like a failure and I didn't start the chain reaction of regret. 

One thing I have figured out, I am addicted to this crap!  I use to smoke in the past and I thought that was hard to quit, holy cow, this is 10 times harder!  But if I have done it a week, I can go another week and another.  Baby steps.

So my plan is after I beat the addiction and know that I will live without all this crap I have fed myself in the past, I will give myself a little bit every now and then.  But I won't live on it.  It will become a treat not a lifestyle because I am changing and I like what see!  It is hard work but I will fight!