If your happy and you know it...

clap your hands!  :)  I sing this song all the time to my kids.  I think it helps to remember to smile. 

I had achieved Tuesday's goals of water consumption and movement.  Ate well too!  I got in over a 100 oz of water, not sure of exact amount.  But I do know it was over 100!!!  I walked at break time and at lunch and did lunges and a ton of hustling around the office.  Instead of emailing or calling my co-workers, I walked to their desk.  I am sure it drove them crazy but it actually saved me time because I got an immediate response instead of having to wait for their reply or call back. 

Awesome dinner of whole wheat spaghetti!  Small portions.  No dessert. 

I got up at 4am this morning.  Was planning on 4:30 but my little boy decided 4 was better! :)  Although he went back to bed at 4:40 and I stayed up.  I am sure I will be sleepy later, but it was worth not having a hectic morning and it will be nice to not have a busy night! Don't know if you know the Flylady, but she is helping me get through my weeks!!!  Her system works great! And I am getting a kick out of the "No Parents Left Behind" emails I get! Gotta check it out! My husband has helped me keep the sink shiny and to not have a ton of things to do on the weekends is fantastic! 

On Twitter this morning, one of my twitter friends said she wouldn't speak to her friends the way she speaks to herself.  I thought me neither!  Why do we talk so badly to ourselves??  So I tweeted her back saying lets not do that today!!!  A challenge!!!  ;)  So today, only good self talk. 

Keeping on with my goals one day at a time, one ounce of water at a time, one minute of movement at a time! 

Is everyday truly a good day???

This health journey I am on is definitely a roller coaster.  I would have to say the one thing I am blessed for is that I haven't gain any weight! LOL!  This week, I am seeing a difference on the scale which I haven't really seen in a long time.  Considering my obstacles, this is a good thing, a good day.  But really, can every day be this good?  I know good things happen every day and it our choice to see them or not, but can every day be giddy good?  Nope, I don't want to be unrealistic.  I want to share the bad things too.  Not just the good.  What is the point of blogging if your not honest.  I know that some use blogs to be someone their not or to "enhance" themselves.  I don't want to be that someone.  I want my blog to be real and so far I think it is!  I can be all jolly happy some days and some days I just want to take a hiatus from people and life.  Those days I want to be quiet.  Life is hard folks and by golly, share those too!!!  When I read blogs and read some of the difficulties people go through I relate more and feel good that others aren't perfect.  I can take what they say and take a deep breath and know I can move on too. I want to thank those people who keep it real...it is hard to admit defeat, but I think when admitting to it you are a winner.  The hardest thing in life to do is to admit when your wrong.  But you can then dust yourself off, it is out in the open and off your mind so that you can be winner. 

So I may not have had the success others have had but life is one step at a time and I have plenty of steps to go!  I will get there...through the good and the bad days. 

My Monday...

How did I wake this morning...to doggie poo...in the bathroom in front of the toilet.  At least the dog knows what the bathroom is used for!!  But it was my husbands dog, so I got to wake him and make him pick it up!!!  I figure I change his sons bottom, he can pick up his dogs poo!!! Seems fair to me! 

The weekend was nice and long and unforgettable.  I crafted and went shopping and got my daughters BIG gift for Christmas.  So the only big ticket item I have left to buy is my husbands. 

I am doing good on the not binging aspect.  I made it through the holidays without gaining any weight.  I am back at work today doing squats at the copy machine and desk push ups whenever I get a chance.  I have been running around the office too and got a walk in.  So I am doing very well I think!  Trying to get movement in whenever I can.  Heck, I did calve raises in the shower this morning!!! 

I went to the store and got some yummy and good for us stuff.  I found some yummy grape seltzer stuff from Welch's that is 70 calories per serving.  I will give that to my family instead of soda.  I got some pita chips and laughing cow cheese.  We are cereal eater, so I got my fav Honey Nut Cheerios and the fruit ones for my daughter.  I got us some fruit to put in our lunches and some Greek yogurt.  I try to find the one with the most protein and I found one with 23 grams!!  My favorite breakfast is the Greek yogurt with some old fashion oats!  Awesome texture!!!  I am going to look into some gluten free bread next and other gluten free items. 

I have had some stressful moments in the last week, but I conquered! 

Happy Post Thanksgiving

Well I made it through the holiday without any binges. I lost 2 pounds
in fact! Probably because I was running around with my head cut off
making sure everyone had what they needed. I just wanted everyone to
sit and eat but they all insisted of standing and talking! HA!
Everyone was happy and chatting and it went great! First year with
both my sister and her family and my dad and my hubbys dad and his
wife, her daughter and family and my hubbys brother and girlfriend. A
ton of people of my little home but it was a kick to see everyone
milling around. We had an occasional toddler running around with his
pants down and other little kid antics with food! We got things
cleaned up and we are so blessed with our crazy family. We were in bed
by 7:30! HA! Now we are planning Christmas dinner!

Today I'm relaxing a bit and going to work on my baby food jar advent
calendar. Going to drag the treadmill back out and fit in a nap!

Good luck to you crazy black friday shoppers! You people are insane! :)

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Studying...

So I got myself a book, Overcoming Binge Eating by Dr. Christopher Fairburn.  I have learned a ton from this book about myself!!  And I am now following the steps in the book to overcome this addiction. I am logging my foods, even the bad binges, and putting comments on how I felt and where I ate it.  I am also doing a weekly worksheet on a summary of my weeks.  This will be the tool to let me know when to move on in the program.  They say to log foods for 3-4 days to see where and when the binges occur.  Then I move onto setting up a scheduled eating plan which means I only eat at certain times to get my brain functioning to normal eating habits. This will be hard for me because I am a huge snacker.  I got into dieting all the time, I told myself I could eat 1200 calories a day, and so I would just snack my 1200 calories all day!  Cause as long as I stayed under 1200, I was good.  It didn't matter to me how or what I ate.  Well then of course, I wouldn't count everything because of guilt...so the calories in and calories obviously didn't work for me.  I know it COULD work for me!  If I did it right! LOL!  And I work my battooty off exercising!!!  My frustration would only lead me to indulge in something yummy sweet!!! 

The book says that the first thing to do is NOT TO DIET! Which makes sense to me because when you binge, your not dieting anyways.  I am just making myself feel more guilty and my self esteem level zooms down to the lowest.  So I am not dieting.  But I know what makes a healthy day with food.  So I have a plan...I eat breakfast at 8:00, (which I do everyday anyway) have a mid morning snack at 10:30(which I want to be a fruit) and then lunch at 12:30 which will have a vegetable, and then a afternoon snack at 3:30 of a fruit and a dairy and then dinner 7:00 and then a evening snack if needed.  I do want to stay away from the evening snack or maybe just have it consist of tea or something.  I go to bed early every night, so it shouldn't be too hard! :)

So I found 16 steps that I have printed and I look at often.  I have crossed out the things I have done already and wrote little notes afterwards! :) 

1. Tell someone. Even if only one person knows about your disorder, at least you will no longer be alone in your struggle.
2. Seek out treatment and therapy. Enroll in an eating disorder treatment facility or attend therapy session. Be willing to learn and make yourself vulnerable.
3. Carry limited amounts of food at home. Although this may be more of a hassle, it will limit temptations at home. I don't binge too often at home because we don't have the bad foods there! And it is harder to binge in front of my family.
4. Relax. Set aside time to enjoy life and take part in a fun activity.
5. Forgive yourself. You can’t change the past, you can only learn from your mistakes.
6. Exercise. Plan out an appropriate exercise program you will desire to maintain.
7. Determine the causes and triggers of your disorder. By doing this you can then take steps to prevent further binges. Working on this!
8. Eat breakfast daily. Those who do not regularly eat breakfast are more prone to binging and eating high calorie meals later in the day.
9. Share your concerns with friends and family. Never isolate yourself. Working on this!
10. Take adequate nutrients. If you do not consume enough nutrients for your body, consider taking vitamin and mineral supplements.
11. Find self-help books. These books will encourage you and often offer helpful advice, especially if they are centered on binge eating. Although I would love to find more GOOD ones!
12. Attend a support group. Knowing that others struggle with the same problems may relieve stress. I don't think I could do this...
13. Talk with a nutritionist. He or she can help you set up an appropriate meal plan.
14. Write in a journal. This may help especially when you have the urge to binge eat. In progress
15. Do not diet. Fad diets rarely help for long periods of time and very strict diet plans may only make your disorder worse.
16. Love yourself for who you are, not what you look like. In progress